An Incessant Cycle Till Fall

Developing a routine has just not happened.

Maybe it’s because I need to recognize that summer is about the ebbs and flows of whatever is happening. Maybe it’s about how infrequently there are major deadlines or work to get through. Also, a good chunk of it also comes from the place of frank fatigue. It’s difficult to upkeep the schedule that you once had been maintaining for effectively nine months on end. It can get so monotonous that you do not know how to keep on pushing forward.

Routine hasn’t been something that has existed for me, and I know that that is a combination of the lack of discipline I’ve had and also because of the unexpected plot twists of the summer. So much of the time has been spent running around here and there, to various places, trying to appreciate the present moment of things while also accepting that life really can change in an instant. I’ve gotten a lot less accomplished than I was hoping during the course of the summer, and a large portion of that has been due to the lack of discipline I’ve had with a few facets in my life.

Locking into how I can really make it through the next month or so before school will be a challenge. I have very little understanding of how much I can comfortably rely on building that sort of ideal schedule, that synergy for making the most of summer. How many different times does the…