On Spiritual Endeavors

Writing and reading so much about social movement work in the last several months (really two years at this point) has left me asking myself what sustainable work in movements looks like in my own praxis.

Beyond the confines of what effort I have in organizing, I am asking myself questions day in and day out about how to actually survive in doing all the things I want to do. It’s been a recurring point of reflection for myself on this blog because I want to see if there are any patterns or trends in how I respond to difficult moments as a point toward moving forward. I’m continuously trying to ask myself why I so often feel as though I’m incapable of being the organizer or scholar I know I could be. Suppose seemingly every other external indicator, from comrades, peers, mentors, family, and friends is reassuring me that things are going in the right direction. Why can’t I simply accept that as such?

I’m always on this general path of searching for answers to what will continue to sustain me externally that I sometimes don’t realize that I’m my own worst enemy, as well as my own best advocate. It’s weird to come through different points of my life where I’m at a crossroads about how to actually lock into getting work done. It could be a specific organizing task I have left to do that is difficult to get through, or a writing assignment I am not focused enough on, but the core of…