Setting Up the Plan…

I have written about the development of my political consciousness for what feels like half of my life (or five).

I’ve given myself the space to grow from someone disillusioned about the circumstances of the world. I have gone towards embracing Pan-Africanism, trying to be more disciplined in my approach to organizing, and figuring out where I want to situate myself in the world. I have gone through reading copious amounts of information every week, consuming podcasts, and talking amongst comrades about pertinent issues. I don’t think I could have been able to write for this long without attempting to at least begin to seriously interrogate where I want to be in the years to come.

But as of the last few months, I do not know if the rate of political education has dwindled, or if life gets in the way, but that rate of development has gone down significantly. I spend so much of my time now just discovering more confirmations of my own analysis, my own shortcomings with respect to organizing, or my own normal actions daily. I have grown generally undisciplined in the way I expand my own vision which hinders my capacity to see new possibilities or new avenues for me to thrive in a more sustainable fashion in movement work.

Leaving things up to chance and just simply hoping that I can sort all things out is incredibly naive. One does not simply have the…