What is Within My Control

I have tried my best this past week to really just be on my own time.

I think that in these moments where you do have some chance at getting to at least separate your present moment from the rest of your life, you should take the chance. This sort of moment frequently passes in my life, and I am always asking myself why I did not give myself a better chance to at least just pause on everything happening to me. I need to remind myself how much more agency I have to control the moments of my life that I care about. Because what is it really to just live life and let my different challenges just merely exist without any substantive response?

I try not to be the person who will complain about things without working towards what solutions I can create for them myself. But, in recent months, I do not think I have done the best of jobs with that. I do think that there are instances where I could be more honest about when something is sincerely bothering me, especially when I consider the implications my behavior or lack of presence has on those around me. I think that in trying to get a sense of how all these things impact my ability to be present, I know that I can then revert to another extreme of just painting myself a bleak picture of where life has been (or where it will not be able to go in the future).